Okay, so I am waiting on something else to come through, and fighting, fighting SO HARD to trust, and not let my mind "go there." You know where I mean. There - to the wild fantasy land of what if?
This is a trial. I know what trials produce. That is encouraging. I know that TRUST is a thing I desperately, desperately want to have.
It occurred to me today that sometimes I fail to trust because - get this - I am afraid of being made a fool by God. I hedge my bets. That makes no sense at all, right? I'm pondering that.
Meanwhile, I just know that the Lord is worthy of my trust. It's not just when I'm going to get the thing I've been praying for.
This reminds me of two songs. One is (of course!) from the new Getty album. In a song about the Rich Young Man, Kristyn sings, "When I cling to what I have/ Please wrest it quickly from my grasp." I have thought of that line A LOT this past week.
It also reminds me of another song, one which nobody really knows, but more people should, by a young man who shared a few songs at our songwriter event last weekend. The bridge of the song merely says, "The Lord is just/ He is worthy of our trust." My brother says if you want people to remember one thing, put it in the bridge. It worked!
He is just.
That reminds me of another song, too, "As Long as You Are Glorified," by Sovreign Grace. I think I need to listen to that now!
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We sang a new-to-me hymn by John Newton recently your post reminds me of. It's a song that I don't really want to sing most of the time, the sometimes-hard-to-swallow truth that growth comes through trials. Such a hard but good truth.
I asked the Lord that I might grow
In faith, and love, and every grace;
Might more of His salvation know,
And seek, more earnestly, His face.
’Twas He who taught me thus to pray,
And He, I trust, has answered prayer!
But it has been in such a way,
As almost drove me to despair.
I hoped that in some favored hour,
At once He’d answer my request;
And by His love’s constraining pow’r,
Subdue my sins, and give me rest.
Instead of this, He made me feel
The hidden evils of my heart;
And let the angry pow’rs of hell
Assault my soul in every part.
Yea more, with His own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe;
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Blasted my gourds, and laid me low.
Lord, why is this, I trembling cried,
Wilt thou pursue thy worm to death?
“’Tis in this way, the Lord replied,
I answer prayer for grace and faith.
These inward trials I employ,
From self, and pride, to set thee free;
And break thy schemes of earthly joy,
That thou may’st find thy all in Me.”
Oh, how sweet of you to share this hymn I've never heard before. I think there's a lot to say about this hymn. Would you like to guest post?
BTW, it's quite a coincidence you posted, because the song with the great bridge was by your brother-in-law, and I've discussed "As Long As Your Are Glorified" with your sister-in-law (the younger one). I think it's safe to say your extended family are hymn nuts.
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